Scene 33 : The Art Of Illustration

I drew this today. Turned out to be not that bad.
After so long of not drawing. I surprised myself.

This is my ultimate favorite. Tried to paint it again. I couldn't.
It was done when I was much much younger, around 11 maybe.

This was something different for me. Experimented with paper mache.
Also done when I was about 11 years old.

I used to draw like crazy. All the time.
Even if its ugly, it made me happy. Somehow.
I love being creative even when I'm not. (:

Scene 32 : Ultimate Point

Broken.
I promise you. My tears won't stop. Everyday will be dark.
I'll cry just as much as I am right now. Truly, I'm sorry.


I care so much and now, I'll disappear.

Scene 31 : Free To Talk?

Do you still love me?
Yes.

Well I love her more. So stop. Let it go, forget me. Everything. Even if I'm not with her anymore, I won't go back to you. I'll move on. I look forward, not backwards. You should too. I will definitely never get back with you. And I want you to know that. I'm not doing this to hurt you, not at all. I just want you to know. I don't want you to wait for me anymore. Please, please. Don't wait for me okay? Just don't. It's not hard to forget me, it's really easy.

And that was the moment a huge part of me died, literally.

Scene 30 : The Next Station

Bought a ticket, heading to the next station.
Starting over. Hoping that I won't revisit this
place. I don't want to. I'm done with all of this.

'And you'll never know how I truly feel about you'

Scene 29 : Retaining Walls

Now, why don't you
just tell me how you
F E E L ?

Scene 28 : Noble Month

I would really love to wish all of you ' HAPPY FASTING '.

Countdown countdown,
A month from today. (:

Scene 27 : A Boy Brushed Red Living In Black And White

I miss a little kid. I miss that childish you. I miss the boy you used to be.

I miss you.

Scene 26 : On The Edge Of One's Seat

Being with you, is like standing in the middle of the road. Right at the center of the divider. With high-speed cars whooshing by on both lanes. Never knowing what could happen. Yet you make something so risky seem so secure. Being with you, is like going on a fast paced car ride. Driving through a straight street and ignoring all those red lights. Never knowing when you're going to stop or which turn you'll take. And you make something thrilling seem so exciting. Being with you, is like taking one of those deathly roller coaster ride. Eyes shut and heart pumping wildly. Never knowing when you're up, down or even sideways. You make something so frightening seem so peaceful. Being with you, makes me feel safe even at the most dangerous places.

Being with you, shows me that life is unpredictable. The same way you left. And yet, being with you was worth it all.

And I'm still holding on, eventhough now you're gone. That's the effect you have on me.

Scene 25 : Press Release

I haven't been updating my blog for quite a while. Either I was just plain lazy, or I really have no clue what to write about. I've been blank lately. I know. (:



1. I'll be changing the style of my blog. Previously, its about love and relationships. More to those poem writings. It'll be much more random now. I'll post about anything and everything, if I'm up to it.

2. I'm so so sorry for my previous post of course. With all the cursing I mean. I guess sometimes we tend to get upset and out of control when all the pressure is on us, and somehow we get so little help from others. But then again, its our fault for being so domineering. When all I could've done was asked for those extra hands. And they'll gladly help me out. Lesson learned.

3. OHMYGOD. Few days ago, almost all of us seniors went crazy. Chaotic I tell you. Well not really, I was just exaggerating. They were announcement posted on the bulletin boards everywhere around school saying that PPD brought forward our trial exam. 17th August. Got us all worried. But we did have fun seeing peoples response to it. Some of them are unforgettable. But then again, all this worrying, we've got ourselves to blame.

4. I've been sleeping with mum the past few days. Dad was away on his business trip.

5. People. They somehow never seem to stop surprising you. Recently I learned that some situations show you the real side of a person. Eventhough I already knew that, I never took it seriously. Till now.

6. Quote of the day.

'' There will be people who will create problems. Treat them as your learning lesson. ''

7. I have this task to be done. An essay on Secrets. Teacher wants us to show her that we're matured in our writing skills. Tough job I tell you. I've been uncreative lately. Haihh. I want my non-stop working mind back.

8. I need to expand the way I think, and put it down on papers. Create some interesting new stuff.

9. Downloaded Picasa. Currently experimenting with it. Obsessed.

10. I feel like talking. Blabbering all day long. All I need is a victim to listen to all those unimportant stories of mine. First person that comes to mind?
Muhammad Aliff Zaini. He never fails to make me smile. Best part of my everyday school life. (:

11. Bought a brand new thumbdrive. 4GB, RM29. Cheap, I know.

12. I miss those times where all I did was draw. Color pencils everywhere.

13. I want a pet rabbit. I miss my old ones.

14. I cam across a new word today, well to me. It sounds so interesting. Ostentatious.

15. Oh I totally forgot to tell you how the carnival went. Amazingly well. Although the process of getting there was hell. All in all, through the yelling, crying and situations full of tension. We had a great time. And in the end, that's all that matters. Only that. (:

16. I really really need to fix my phone. Its driving me crazy.

17. Oh us Luhurians had a greaaaat photoshoot the other day. For our school leavers of course. I'll upload some pictures later.

18. I would really really like to meet Muhamad Aziman. Oh and celebrate his birthday of course. 9th August. Told you I'll remember. =D

19. I want a new excitement. Anything. Life now is apparently quite boring. I wanna meet new friends. Catch up with cousins. God knows how much I miss them. I wanna travel. I want to escape, for now.




20. Finally, I dreamt about him.