Scene 24 : Fired Up

I fucking hate my class.
But I care for only some of them.
And truthfully, I give up now.
I fucking don't care anymore.

Feel like I'm being too rude?

Well, it's just what I feel.
Besides, honesty is the best policy remember.

Scene 23 : So Called High School

Today was one of those crazy days.
It got real hectic at school, and after too.
School leavers, school leavers.
Carnival, carnival. Haihh.
Apparently, we have lots and lots of thinking to do.
And decision makings too.
Hopefully everything turns out well. (:

Scene 22 : Nine Months

'' You can hold on for so long, but after a while it's not worth it. ''

Scene 21 : The Magnificent Adventures Of Heartache

'' Thanks F, for everything. I might not say
it quite often last time, so let me say it now.
You changed me. And you will always, always
remain a big part in my life. Know that I'll be
here if you ever need me. Till we met again
great friend, ILOVEYOUSOMUCH. ''

Let me tell you this ,it was definitely a great ride.
Although it was full of pain and suffering,
Yet its filled with lots of happiness and love.
And it definitely took a lot of energy away.
But it was all worthwhile.
I wouldn't trade it for anything else in the world.
I'm glad I had the chance to get to know you.
Thanks for everything F.

Finally after exactly nine months,
I accept how things are now.
I've deleted everything about you.
I've made it easier for the both of us.
And this is for the best.

I can finally be happy now.
I already am.

Scene 20 : Changing Lanes

My mind was set to one thing, and one thing only.
That I would never ever forget you.
That I couldn't, that it was hard. Impossible.
I was dead wrong.
If I took all those energy, and changed the goal,
To forgetting you and moving on.
It'll turn out to be a great success.
Don't you agree?
I realize now that I was on the wrong path.
And now, I'm taking a whole new route.
I'm changing lanes.
I'll try all over again.
Even if it'll take up a really really long time,
And all my energy perhaps.
I won't fall off course.
And this is one promise I make.
For you, and more importantly,
For me.

Scene 19 : Uncommonly Asked

Between eternity and history?
I strongly believed that you chose eternity.
But we lost our way. And you ended up choosing history.


and just like that, my wish of spending the rest of
my life with you had gone to waste.

Scene 18 : Something To Believe In

Sometimes everything is great.
Sometimes everything is BULLSHIT.

and sometimes its easier not to hope for anything,
but to expect the worst. sometimes thats better.

Scene 17 : Can't Stop The Rain

I used to wonder for hours, why you left.
I thought of it a moment ago too.
And I think, I know now.
No wait, I'm sure of it.

She really is beautiful, really. I just never
took the time to realize it like you did.

Yet its breaking me apart
to know the truth now,
but I'm glad you're happy.
I've lost my self confidence,
my heart is scattered all over.
It's safe to say, hope is gone.

And maybe, just maybe. It's easier for me to forget you now.
I need to.

Scene 16 : Simultaneously

Lets just say that a lot of drama occurred today.


'' Respect for ourselves guides our morals,
respect for others guides our manners. ''
Chaotic. FIGHTS.
School burst with outrage.
Almost everyone lost it.
One's fault was blamed to others.
The usual.

Elbert Hubbard once said,
'' The love we give away is the only love we keep. ''
And I realized that I gave your love away.
And that your love is still the one I keep.
But I need to let go, yet I can't.
No, I just don't want to.

'' It's not that some people have willpower and some don't.
It's that some people are ready to change and others are not. ''


Well, as you can see, a lot of things happened today. Which suits the title. As everything kind of came simultaneously. First there was the school fight, then the realization of me missing him, and the disappointment of me not trying to change. And let everything be.
But just for a while, all of this went away when two of my friends came over. Farah Diana and Shafiq Hafiz. (:

Scene 15 : Two Years

'' Happy two years of friendship F. ''

I took everything out. All the things that you gave me, I looked at them again.
I wore all the things you gave me. I read everything you wrote me. I glanced
through all the pictures we took. I remembered all the things we did. I realize,
no matter how much I try. It'll always be you. And I know, you're gone.

Just for today, let me say what I want to say.
I LOVE YOU STILL.

I am crying.

Scene 14 : Everything That Is Wrong Seems Right

And this is when I fall
head over heels for you.

Yet a big part of me is afraid, that I'll fall for the wrong guy.